
We have a conference call scheduled with "Pinkie's" birth mom tomorrow. I am a ball of nerves. I have fears of being tongue tied. Will I be able to control myself. What am I to say to the woman who will give me her child to love and care for? We have never met Noah boys mama. Yet, I have a bond with her unlike any bond I have ever had. Just thinking about "Pinkie's" birth mom forms a lump in my throat. My heart skips a beat and my eyes well with tears. How am I ever going to keep it together?
Marc-a-Roni and I will be able to meet her in the hospital. When I see her will I know her? Will I be given another tender mercy to get a peek beyond my worldly sight? Will I remember her and I together in Heaven? I believe we have known each other before our earthly existence. I imagine she knew we would need a little help getting "Pinkie" to our family here on earth. I imagine she was willing to help us out.
It's hard not to have that nagging feeling in a small place of your heart saying "be careful, you may be hurt." It has happened before. Almost 2 years ago my world stopped spinning for a moment. But it was just for a moment because Our Father helped me get back up and brush myself off.
So if my world does stop spinning for a moment sometime in the next 7 weeks... Don't fret.... I'll be ok. Until "Pinkie" is in my arms I will walk tall with FAITH in His Plan.
{Our "Something Pink" has been changed to "PINKIE" thanks Nat!}