Thursday, May 21, 2009

The Phone will Ring...


We have a conference call scheduled with "Pinkie's" birth mom tomorrow. I am a ball of nerves. I have fears of being tongue tied. Will I be able to control myself. What am I to say to the woman who will give me her child to love and care for? We have never met Noah boys mama. Yet, I have a bond with her unlike any bond I have ever had. Just thinking about "Pinkie's" birth mom forms a lump in my throat. My heart skips a beat and my eyes well with tears. How am I ever going to keep it together?
Marc-a-Roni and I will be able to meet her in the hospital. When I see her will I know her? Will I be given another tender mercy to get a peek beyond my worldly sight? Will I remember her and I together in Heaven? I believe we have known each other before our earthly existence. I imagine she knew we would need a little help getting "Pinkie" to our family here on earth. I imagine she was willing to help us out.
It's hard not to have that nagging feeling in a small place of your heart saying "be careful, you may be hurt." It has happened before. Almost 2 years ago my world stopped spinning for a moment. But it was just for a moment because Our Father helped me get back up and brush myself off.
So if my world does stop spinning for a moment sometime in the next 7 weeks... Don't fret.... I'll be ok. Until "Pinkie" is in my arms I will walk tall with FAITH in His Plan.
{Our "Something Pink" has been changed to "PINKIE" thanks Nat!}

7 comments:

Tiffany said...

Loving thoughts and prayers sent your way. Beautiful wording Kiera!

McAtee Family said...

You, pinkie and the rest of the RitterB's are in my prayers. The call will be great - the first time we talked was on the phone and you have a way of making someone feel instantly loved and cared for. I know that will come thru the phone to Pinkie's Birth Mama and she will feel the love that you will have for your new little one.

And no fair making me all misty eyed at work.

Ms. Kelli said...

Love ya. I don't know one person that would not be immediately put at ease by you and your beautiful personality. My prayers are with you today. Looking forward to hearing an update....

Robin and Don said...

You'll be in our thoughts and prayers

pan x 8 said...

I love that and the story of "Pinkie" ~ Can I just tell you it was so great to talk to you on Wednesday!!!! I love you and miss you and will be better at just picking up the phone because it totally takes the miles away and it feels like we are neighbors trying to get some "talk time" with our favorite friend! You are in my prayers and I know your faith will bless you!

You are still one of my favorite ROCKSTARS! Mary-Tessa is the other one!

Aaron and Melissa said...

You will be in our prayers! How did the call go? My friend that gave her baby up for adoption met her baby's mama in the hospital and it was the sweetest day of her life. She now is married with 2 kids- and she still tears up when she thinks about the spiritual experience that occurred in that hospital room! It will be an amazing experience for you and all involved :)

Breona said...

My friends mom's name is really pinkie. stuck from a newborn and she even signs it. ANYWAYS. You are a great mother and person. I know you will be blessed for your testimony. Good luck and my prayers are with you guys as well. Love ya.